My Secret Hideout:)

2009-01-15T05:21:00.000-08:00

Okay im gonna write a trial story here in a bid to restore my fading writing and narrative skills
And no i do not have any forms of planning for this story
Its gonna be spontaneous and random!

Blind Faith(the song im listening now=))
Chapter 1:See No More
Darkness. A world of Darkness. His feet transverse rock solid ground.
Ground that is made out of sediments and grass.
With creatures milling about in their own ways feets below.
A world that is alive.
But no. To him the world is dark.
No matter how real it felt underneath those sneakers of his
No matter how kind souls would describe to him this world filled with love and beauty
Love is not dark nor pitch black.

He felt like he was in a nightmare
But he couldnt find the exit
For everywhere is black
And his life is filled with black
Black of sadness
Black of loss
Black of guilt
He reflects back
But all remains black like his future
They are to be black forever to be
For he now pays for the sins of those whose life is still lighted by angel's ray
Hatred fills in his soulless eyes
But what can dead eyeballs do for a vengeful man
Who cannot see his true enemies?
They say that the darkness night is before dawn
But for Crist, there will be no dawn
For his last moments were the crimson of blood
And never more will he see life in all its vibrant energies
Comdemned to darkness
He offers his life to darkness
And wallow in the halls of agony and anguish

Then a voice came, neither old not young
"Come, my son"
"God will deliver"
And i ran out of ideas lol

2007-09-24T05:15:00.001-07:00

While in School, i have this little music video playing in my head.
It was quite nice, quite November rain-esque. HAha im gonna write it down here so i dun forget:)

Scene 1: My band member open the door to my ex-class(xms)*Sunlight shines through cracked windows
Its dusty and stuff. I wipe away dust and cobwebs and stuff
* Bands set up equipment
Me: Been a long while.

Drum guy/gal writes on whiteboard: The Dust Of Your Memories
Acoustic intro; Drum beat slow.

Song:Dust Of Your Memories
I return to this place
Where dreams rise and fall
Im back beside my chair
Seeing my past flash * Me walks over to the chair
*Guitar dudes/gals sit on the other tables

I see those words you wrote* Words appear
Those words i place my faith in
I Glimpsed at you from behind my bag
And see your ethereal smile and joy

Chorus 1:
You will be there everytime
Whenever i look across
Your smile kept me going
And my Heart keeps on going
So i kept believing 10 years down the road
You be here sitting there
Never had i know
Im just wiping the dust of your memories

Scene 2:*Sky turns to Dusk*
*Tempo changes*
Now im lying here
Right beside where you used to be*touches cactus plant
Maybe dreaming that you will call me home
Maybe hoping you will be by my side

Oh yeah..
Only god knows of my love
Only God knows..

Guitar SOLO

Scene 3: * Dark night . Rainy thunder and stuff
Keyboard/piano solo(November rain like or Space dye vest)

Still wasting the days of my life
Up here in this empty room
I Can only lament the past gone
Wish you're still here

Waiting for a past that is not the future
Watching you go by me
But i can still dream and dream
Even as i wipe the dust of your memories

Guitar solo

Our 10 year anniversary.
END

2007-09-17T08:21:00.002-07:00

Ahem..Wadeva haha Revamp..Its late at nite..
I wun be updating for some while..
Be patient!

P.S Girl on the left...Crystal maiden?!

2007-09-17T08:21:00.000-07:00

Ahem..Wadeva haha Revamp..Its late at nite..
I wun be updating for some while..
Be patient!

The 9th post!

2007-04-08T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hm decided to blog here for now cus
i really have nth much to say abt school and stuff...
(Okie, i admit im lazy:P)
Jus finished my chinese hw
But haven touched my gp yet...
Its the harder one so i dun really wan to bother yetxD

And ya i found a nice video from one of my favorite singer

Enjoy:)

Im gng to the choir concert on next monday
Is anyone gng too har?^^
Shona somehow sounds so excited when im gng...
hm i think choir tickets are not selling well lols
(Okie dun tell anione:()

Gp post?All about me?

2007-03-26T03:21:00.000-07:00

Okay ahem* Well (standard opening) I'm a student studying in AJC,

somewhere in ang mo kio. Good thing that its near AMK centre, thank god.
U can call me benjamin tan, ben tan, benben or bennie, whatever pleases you:)
The next 5 minutes will be wasted, just be warned lols!

I used to be from xinmin sec(Great school, principal,food)
Spend most of the time there sleeping and stuff
Same with AJ i guess but its worse cus AJ is a sleepy school
Somehow scrap through o'levels and ended up in AJ

Okie enough of school le(Its boring enough)
Lets talk about my likes then...
I do like playing video games, you can learn alot from games,you know!
Right now, im playing Guitar Hero 2 which involves pressing buttons
corresponding to the colour shown on screen.
Personal favourites includes
Devil may Cry
Onimusha
Metal Gear Solid
Burnout
Warcraft3
Resident Evil
I like listening to music too! I do love rock, mainly bands like Linkin Park,
My Chemical Romance,30 Seconds to Mars,Avenged Sevenfold etc
Pop rock also is fine for me with hits by Kelly Clarkson, Avril Lavinge.
Sometimes, i will dwell into hardcore rock/metal bands like Disturbed, Killswitch Engaged...
Basically any music that sounds wonder to my ear, i will listen no matter the band..
Notable Game music includes Natasha Farrow's "Calling to the Night" and "Devils Never Cry"
As for chinese songs or japanese songs, Jay Chou music is always great.
I do also listen to Fish leong's songs such as Silk Road. S.H.E still remains my favourite!
Japanese songs usually consists for me , Anime songs.
Other then that, I listen to BOA.

My ambitions?:)
When im was young, i want to be a astronaut.See the stars and stuff...
But looking at how horrendous my physics is, i have to forsake it...:(
Now though, i want to get rich by doing or selling things beneficial to people
Then spread the wealth to charities and develop schools in Africa
Having seen movies like Hotel Rwanda and Blood Diamond,
I am really inspired to help those Africans
Let the child soldiers notion be destroyed!

As for sports, I enjoy soccer, Bball, Hockey and badminton.
Im do like table-tennis, having learn from my frens.
All you need is two like-minded people and you can play!
Much easier to organize then soccer..

Interesting things about me?
Tomorrow is my birthday^_^!

Anyway, the 5 minutes wasted will not be refunded.Too bad:P Buaiz...

End of slacking:(

2007-03-23T20:27:00.000-07:00

School is starting to get really mundane
Really, Im starting to hate AJ.
The moment you step inside,
it feels like a prison where you cant escape...

Its boring rating has got to be the worst
There PRACTICALLY NOTHING to do!

Now top 5 things to do in AJ(before you disintegrate in the stale atmosphere)
-Play DOTA(this one cud get modded so i better not say anything)
-Plays cards(somehow cards is the only fun factor in schooling=.=)
-Sleep(AJ gt that aura of fatigue,makes you wanna fall asleep)
-Discover a way to sneak out of school(Aj is quite foolproof to my disappointment)
-Pon Lectures(Oh for god sake...)

You can see its really boring! Let list down AJ pros and cons den:
+Pros
+Friendly frens
+Some nice teachers

-Cons
-boring
-Food
-Stupid rules
-School dat have seen better days
-Screwed up timetables
-Teachers dat aren't really adept at teaching
-P.E
-Some moronic ppl
- Everything =.=

Aniwae enough of the ranting le..
Im stuck here forever.(well its only 2 years..)
So On friday, i missed the chinese lesson due to my blurness..
I thought it starts at 3.45 so i went to the library to sleep.
Den i found out that it starts on 2.45.OMG!
Haiz just forget it..only 10 mins left =.=

So went home with ming kwan instead..
We had a really good chat
Maybe this is the last time we cud have such a great sharing
All the homework wud drown me eventually so
Must vent all my fustrations!

While travelling to amk hub,
We talk abt our class,the school and the old days of YGO
Really, those memories are really touching ba
I hope i could go back and have fun all over again

Ming kwan is a good fren..A really good guy i have stick with since sec 1..
Best Buddies rite:)

Let the concert commence!

2007-03-17T23:54:00.000-07:00

Sorry OG 19! I couldn't go to the outing though:(
Hope you guys have fun at Escape ba haha!

Went to lots of places yst
First we went bugis to pray in the temple
Lots of those ashes fell onto my hand lols
IT HURTS LIKE CRAP!!!
Den i realise something, more like get enlightened
I think we humans are too selfish le..
So instead of praying for my own health and results
I prayed dat the world wud stop fighting
Dat terrorists will realise what they are dng is bad
Dat everyone do not have to die for no reason..

Outside the temple, i saw some rather funny stuffXD
Dere was like 2 artists who were posing for money
One of them was painted gold and was naked except for
a cloth that protects his you know where...
Kinda sad lols they both ned money..
But at least they are courageous enough to do this..

Den Went to Plaza Sing to repair my bro's zen neon
Zzz his zen actually gt damaged in 1 week..
Im really speechless lor..
Mum gt kinda pissed though when she found out that she has to pay $103
So in the end, she gt angry and walk away..(Kinda rude rite?)
Wasted trip zzz..Wanted to buy some clothes but decided against it
cus my grandma ard..( She will nag at me de...better not..>.<)

But there is a gd news!
I finally bought Guitar Hero 2!
Now i can rock out at home! This is so cool!:)
I can imagine myself taking the guitar and playing it like a rockstar!lols!

Thanks mum^_^

Still sick though...
My crap throat wun leave me alone
Tmr icebreaker will be a sure torture..bleh..

Aniwae thanks for reading lols:) byebye! and treasure your throat:(

2007-03-16T00:08:00.000-07:00

Before this becomes my gp blog, I will quickly take advantage of this.. Yesterday was a really really bad day.. For the whole day, i was bedridden.

Why leh?
I was so sick...My head was hot, my body cold, my throat dry and my entire body aching...
I had such a terrible time eating my bfast--for once i hate food lols..
Nobody was at home, so i was all alone..kinda ke lian rite?>.<

Then spend the rest of the meaningless day drifting in and out of sleep..
I feel so devastated and helpless..wish someone was there to hug me or sth..provide me warmth..
Cud'nt do much though..my fever only hai me draw badly.. Fustrated yet cant really get a nice nap..
Spend the time just staring outside and wish i was one of those kids playing happily..

Being sick sucks..I hope i do not become sick anymore..I must exercise and eat healthily! Byes:) ( You guys dun fall sick too!)

2007-03-14T03:21:00.000-07:00

T.T I cant believe i actually type the last 3 posts out..Its so saddening.. Ya it reminds me of things dat shud have been forgotten but i wun erase the posts.. I do cherish the memories painful or not... Anyway this is the first post since like 8 months ago! Now it will be cheery too! Okay i declare this blog open lols!!! Welcome^_^

2006-07-07T21:30:00.000-07:00

I dun reallli noe i shud cry or rejoice...seems like heaven is both kind n cruel to me at the same time... Frens dat i never knew i hav pop out to bring mi joy, even in maple.. Im so touched by their concern... Everytime i lose frens i gain new ones.. I do hope everything comes to a gd end... jus still depressed but i promise to stay happy and sane for my frens:) Love you guys thx^.^

2006-07-01T02:03:00.000-07:00

I jus luv this song "everytime" by simple plan.. It jus reminds mi of the time i spend together wit you n now dat we r all seperated.. it brings back happi memory.. i hav stablised come to terms wit it dat things are never going to be the same.. I wud pretend to be cheerful for the sake of everyone else... Though all i wanted was 1 more day.. one more day wit you.. but everything changed now.. i dun wan change T.T! When i turned to look at you you jus pretend to not see me n walk awae ... I stoopidly n foolishly sms u thinking dat u wud reply even though u brought no phone... I wish we cud go bak sobsob.. Byes for now..

2006-06-29T03:28:00.000-07:00

I need somewhere to vent all my feelings out... and i decided that tis shud be the place. I luv the FF8 Background! Dun you think so?^^ Its so nice reminds mi of my love... They do have a happy ending.. Happy ever after.. But mine doesnt.. im jus struggling to keep mine stable>.<
Maybe u never had the feeling i had... I thought everything is gng to be a fairytale.. u gav mi the best 6 months in my life u noe? but i never told you.. And now you gav mi emotional HELL! Everytime u treat mi coldly, im hurt terriblely and i will cry not knowing what i have done to deserve this treatment! Can you pls tell mi? No you wun cuz you changed so much.. i dun know you animore! I feel our distance is drawing apart and there you r cheerful n obvilious to my presence.. u noe how painful is dat?! I jus dun wan you to change pls..>< im afraid to lose you...